The hate.

 I've had a lot of trouble. Yes, I've had dark thoughts because I was yelled, screamed and swore at recently.  Yet I still got up but now I just let it sink in because I'm not thinking in actually believing that I'm going to be saved from my misery. I've just put on the mask and smiled.

 It's upsetting being forced to do something you don't want to do then you just want to yell but I don't want to do that because I'll think that I am the bad person who is just a heartless hoe. Now that I've made up with my friend and I guess it got better?.. I can't change myself, how can I?

Hate myself, I know I can't tell anyone about anything . I have done this to me, you can't change the past...Unfortunately no one can.


Peace! Gratitude.

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